Monday, January 29, 2007

New Year's Resolution

I haven’t posted in a while. It’s really been since the end of the November when I lasted posted regularly. Now, I’m trying to turn over a new leaf. Yes, I realize that New Year’s resolutions typically occur at the New Year, not on January 29, but so what. I’m coming to terms that I just will be late on things pertaining to me and my needs. But that’s what this is all about…turning over a new leaf to help me get my anxiety in control and get the stress level down. Here are the things I’m doing:

 

1)       Taking deep breaths. Really, it’s that serious that I think a little breathing will help.

 

2)       Reaching out on the phone to friends old and new. I used to talk on the phone a lot, but got away from it. Last week, I talked to a friend I met recently (Carol) as well as a friend I’ve had for ten years (Tobi). It felt so good to hear familiar voices.

 

3)       Hiring a housecleaning service. There’s just no way to keep up with it, while mothering and working full time outside the house. It is enough to try and keep up with the vast piles of paper that accumulate at our home. DH is against a service, because he feels we should be able to do it all. His only experience is his own family, where the grandmothers came over each Saturday to help with raising the children, cleaning and cooking. Though I love the old-country mentality, I don’t have that kind of support system. So, Merry Maids it is, twice a month.

 

4)       Continuing to exercise regularly. I’ve been doing well with the Pilates classes twice a week, but it’s time to kick it up a bit. My friend and neighbor Kim is going to walk with me a few times a week. When the weather improves (say, above 40 degrees), and the days get longer, I’ll start running again.

 

5)       Reaching out to a select few co-workers to gain perspective on my new role. The woman I replaced is actually still here, but she moved to a new group. So she understands the trials/tribulations of the role - and I can ask her questions.

 

6)       Cleaning off my desk at the end of the day. It’s a mess, no wonder I’m feeling anxious.

 

7)       Remembering the right job and the right role is out there. It’s worth waiting for and I will find it when it’s time.  

 

8)       Keeping my head above water. Seriously, my life standard is not worth complaining about. We’re blessed and live above middle class. We have our health, the health of Garcon and our parents and family to be thankful for. I drive a newer car. All the problems in my world don’t amount to a hill of beans when you look at the greater issues right now...apologies to Bogie for the bad paraphrase.

 

What else can be done to help me feel less anxious? Open to suggestions…